I’ve always been the type of person who doesn’t let things get to me, I pushed things aside, I held things together. I was always the one who would help other people. I’d never really been happy, but I was content with my life. Now, I’ve held things in for so long, and all the shit I’ve been through and it’s hit me so hard. I still don’t show my emotions to people, so people here think i’m fine. I’m not. I’m an absolute mess, no, I’m passed a mess.
I stopped eating, I started smoking. I drink far too much alcohol. I’m angry and bitter. I’m starting to shut people out. I don’t sleep. I do too many drugs.
and I know I’m being stupid and selfish, but I can’t stop.